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11月14日 Been A While Huh?Hey...I suppose I should update this thing since it has been well over a year since I have been on here...plus i'm bored, so there!
 General update: I have my own place...but still working the same crappy job. Oh yeah..i have a dog, and a lot of fish and aquariums. Aside from that..not a whole lotta stuff goin' on here. Maybe i'll keep ya posted. 11月9日 a la carte“Life is persistently dynamic and the circumstances drive us all into a particular path at some point in our lives. The way in which we journey down this path mainly depends on our ability to make choices based upon the best collection of knowledge we contain. If we only encompass the slightest of vision, we are forced into the risk of potential endless possibility. Therefore based on the number of factors known versus possibility, it is fair within reason to say that regardless the connection you choose; there is always one that is more superior and more inferior to that of the decision that you have just converged upon.”
Christina Nov. 2006
8月10日 40 oz to freedomWell, i'm twenty freakin' eight as of today (midnight..8/11)
 ...one year closer to thirty and death lol. It's kinda scary actually!!! But the good news is i finally found a job in the field i went to school for (not that i was trying all that hard to find one to begin with ). It was my first interview since i've been finished and it went unexpectedly. It might not be the best job out there, or the best paying..but shit...it's a start to a career anyhow. Yup..twenty-eight and just starting to grow up kinda-sorta...not so fun haha..If i had the choice, i would be a kid forever..not to say that i won't be one on my own free time..but responsibilites and bills begin FOREVER  . I kinda just wish i made more of the month i had off..like travel or something..i guess a real vacation will just have to wait till next summer (boo). I guess i should think of it this way...i have all weekend to get pissed, make an ass out of myself and be a lil' bit of a shit cause i don't start till monday!  !!Fuck it!!
Cheers  7月12日 !!Finally!!OKay...so finished school forever. Handed in the final papers today, all sorted out !!!!!!! fun times!!!!!! i finally graduate in the fall...yippy..only problem now is i am a jobless, broke ass bum with no motivation to do anything but relax and enjoy...sounds like a prize eh lol ..ahh well fuck it..i will enjoy this time i have till i work for the rest of my life...in that case...who wants to party? :)
cheers :) 6月3日 "the break up"This movie turned out to have a not so great review with two stars by Hamilton spectator critics. I found that yes, the humour was alright and not always continuous, but the story rings similar to what some women have come to recognize as a pattern while in a failing relationship (except for the whole humour relief plotting back in forth part).
There is a point in a relationship when a significant other becomes way too comfortable and decides to no longer put effort into the relationship and the feelings of the other. This leads to increased fighting when the unhappy partner has had enough and wants to be heard out. Generally this leads to a break up because both sides become unhappy and the situation is not resolvable
I recommend that men go and see that movie so they can see how retarded they can be and let the perfect gurl slip away :) AND OF COURSE IT'S HILARIOUS 5月24日 =*PURITY*="lOVE TO ME IS NOT REALLY DEFINED, BUT IT IS PURITY, IT IS IMMORTAL; IT CAN KILL OR CREATE.I DON'T BELIEVE THE MAJORITY OF THE PLANET HAS THE ABILITY TO LOVE. LOVE IS WORTH DIEING FOR, AND IT IS SOMETHING THAT WHEN YOU HAVE IT, YOU ALWAYS KNOW. EVEN IF THE LOVE IS NOT RETURNED, YOU WILL LOVE THAT PERSON FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE THE SAME AMOUNT THAT YOU LOVED THEM FROM THE START."Josh R., 2006This is a quote from a very close friend and smart person
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who believes that to love someone means a great deal, and that love is equal across the board..to love is simply to love. There are no defining levels or boundaries to it. Everyone recieves the same love weather it is a mother or a lover..love is just that, love ...someone you would give your life for to protect.5月9日
~*The Class*~
We have all been through hell, and have all survived up to this point in our lives....great job guys on raising $5, 275.00 for the bursary fund in kathy's name. Hope i will see you guys again soon. I will miss you all, but i will not miss school :p
We can finally stop biatching and enjoy life now
In case u can't find me in the one photo 
..i blew myself up lol
..i blew myself up lolCHEERS GUYS 
5月3日
~I am a turnip...goo goo g' joob~
How many ppl out there think dating sux? Is it just online dating that is messed, or is it the whole thing?
I ask this question cause as a single gurl (recent to online dating), i'm pritti content with being single. I think dating kinda mixes up ur life and takes u for a ride. Not all the rides at the park are fun nor aweful. It can be beneficial or detrimental to ur once healthy self esteem. Guess i'm getting old or something? I suppose i have not done a lot of dating through my life, most of the time i was in a relationship met through friends.
That's ok and fine. But this online dating stuff seems a lil' bit off and sketchy to me. It's like a giant meat market that ppl think they can pick u up off of a shelf and decide wheather to purchase u or if their is a cheaper item on sale. Not to mention the amount of calories u add to their diet. If i were an item i would be more like a sqaush or turnip or something. An item that is somewhat flavourless and messy. No one knows what to do with a squash or turnip, and tends to walk on by. perhaps it's my tuff outershell that deflects them? perhaps it's that bland taste i leave behind..i dunno..i'm not really making any sense now. Back to the point.
People are interesting creatures..u never know what they are going to say or do next. I find this particularly true of online dating. It is hard to determine who the real ppl are and who the fakes are. So it is safe to assume that they are all crazy till proven not....Why is it that they always ask u out on a date before they even know your name, or insiting that ur name is fit as "sexi"? Would a guy on the street approach a woman and do this..or ask them what they're wearing under their pants? Most likely not since they would prolly get their ass kicked.
Anyhow..just rethinking my decision on trying this thing...it seems a little unreal and awkward. i am quite content on my own. perhaps i should let it happen naturally since it all seems a lil' forced online.
Is it worth it in the end? Has anyone really hooked up for the long haul on one of these things, or am i just insane for even bothering with it?(natural would be great cept all my friends are guys, and no guy is gonna approach a gurl surrounded by dudes..it's just not gonna happen..i need more gurlfriends(single ones)
4月29日
Game Over
YAY...finally done this in school program..just need to finish off the clinical placement and then i can have a life again!! So excited to be able to do stuff again! (Hope i didn't fail anything lol)
3月12日
Strike Two
I agree with some of what "Antitoes" was saying in her comment.(Hey gurl, what's up by the way?)
Although i agree with the individual's right to protest working conditions, i think that what is being asked for is a little insidious (annoying to say the least).
The strike is about....
1) The teachers want smaller class sizes
2) Smaller work loads
They already recieved a pay increase, but i guess that wasn't good enough.(shit, i'd be happy with money!) It's not like they teach all day and have to mark everything in their own time at home. Maybe 3 hours/day or so..comeon
In my college experience, class size is quite small actually. Initially, yes, we started out with 70 people. That quickly dropped to approx. 50 at the end of the first semester. Now in year two, our class has been split into two halves. approx 14 people to a class.
If they are complaining about the workload, then how do u think we feel as students with our endless papers and readings. Stuff that we actually have to learn. They already know the material, so nothing new needs to be learned.
(check=correct, X=wrong = DUH!)
During year one, the classes were mostly generalized (such as anatomy and physiology). These generalized classes had some tests that were fairly large. The thing is though, the teachers didn't even have to mark them. They were mostly multiple choice and were able to be marked with a scantron system (basically a machine that detects the correct answers).
During year two, yes everything is short answers, but the teachers should know the answers to them because they made the questions, (hopefully meaning they're competent) hence making it easier to mark.
I just don't get it? But i better get my tuition back if this keeps on. I'm not impressed if we have to condense the program and cram everything in. That is not what i payed for, and refuse to be semi-educated, guessing and stressing!!!
So not kewl,
Cheers:)
strike one
So here we are...
The teachers of the ontario colleges are on strike. It's been almost a week now. I have finished all of my papers, but find myself losing the will to read and continue doing school stuff.
This weekend i opted to do a lot less work than i prolly should have. I just can't get into the groove, besides my mind is on idle. I try to read the endless information, i do, but it's just not sinking in.
Who knows when they are going back? I have lost the will to continue thou. That poses as a problem considering that i'm supposed to be finished in the summer and start looking for work. I don't really wanna be there anymore, and the thought of having to condense the program scares me cause i'm not that good at it as it is. However, i don't want it to drag on anymore than it has to.
I never want to go back!
Cheers,
2月10日
Losing weight is tuff biznas
Hey ppl out there....I have some advice for those looking to shed a couple of pounds, but are too lazy to really put too much effort into it. Without expensive gyms.
At my heaviest, i weighed 170 lbs at 5'3". blah...Needless to say, it was a very depressing time in my life. I ended up at approx. 115 lbs following my efforts over a year. However since then i've been in school, i've began a slow step back up the scale (not as badly as before, but enough to annoy the hell outta me).
This is how i did it the first time.....Now i'm a really lazy person, and exercise to me is sux beyond words. I started by simply walking to timmies to get coffee everyday. This allowed me to think about life, poetry, and goals for the future while hating my ex for ditching me.
The way it works is that i had a goal for the walking, a destination, so that i wasn't wandering aimlessly in the streets. This didn't feel like exercise because i had a destination. Coffee by the way can aid in losing weight, therefore i wasn't doing myself any harm when it came to calories (just insomnia).
Secondly, i purchased an inexpensive recumbnant bike that i perched in front of the tv to entertain myself. I would ride that for about a half hour a day. I figured if i was going to watch tv, i might as well be losing weight. I used the bike mostly in the winter when it was too cold to walk, or if i didn't want to miss a good show.
Thrid, i purchased Tae Bo tapes...i know, i know..sounds kinda dumb...but it works. Kickboxing helped me lose weight and learn how to high kick someones ass if i ever got attacked :p.
Anyways...the hardest part in all of it was controling food portions, and the time you eat. I found that NOT eating after say...7:00 at night no matter how hungry you were helped a lot. But the hardest part in all of this was hitting the plateau. A plateau is when you stop losing weight and kinda hover at the same weight regardless of your exercise routine. This requires stepping up the routine and making modifications.
So i began taking up sports. I started playing street hockey with who ever was willing. I shot a few hoops at the local school yard, roller bladed, bike riding through trails etc.
Starting to exercise is the hardest step of all. you feel tired and drained after the first 3 weeks. But if you push on, you will feel great after each exercise.
Now that i've been in school for the past year and a half, the weight is slowly gaining back due to sitting on my ass all day studying my ass off. Shoveling food in your mouth between periods and studying. The free time you have is spent doing homework and projects, and throwing in a shower when possible. I have yet to figure out how to maintain a good level of physical activity. When i figure out how to lose weight while going to school, i'll let you know.
But until then, try using the stairs and skip the elevator. Don't eat the crap they serve at the caf, and mind your food intake. If anyone else has any ideas on how to lose weight while going to school, post it here.
Cheers :)
2月9日
Happy Endings..just thinking...
Happy endings...if humans desire it so much, then why don't we make it happen?
The first few months of a relationship are always immersed in passion, lust and happiness. Then what happens? I'll tell ya... coexistence happens. You begin to tolerate each others presence and annoying habbits.Why do you think that many relationships don't make it past the first few months? In the begining, it's one giant passion loop, but after that it becomes hard work. And who needs more work in their lives right? We already work away most of it. There must be some kind of love code out there that can be broken.
Is all love to foresee this kind of fate? Are we all doomed to live with mediocrity? If not then i would like to see those who have beaten the odds. Can romance survive the hostile environment of the relationship? Or is it destined for people to just give up and throw in the towel when they figure they don't have to try anymore. We lay down like dogs and let it happen though. And why? Because we think it's as good as it gets.
Am i destined to only fantasies of greatness in my mind? If so than i'd rather be alone with them, than escaping to them.
In the movies, good prevails over evil, true love wins, all is well, and everyone lives happily ever after. No wonder why we watch so much tv. People in Canada watch on average 22-26 hours of tv per week, work approx 40 hours, sleep 6-8 hours, eat, shower etc, etc...where is their time for this stuff? Easy...eliminate the obvious.(this could lead into another subject however about politics :P)
On that note, i hope that everyone thinks about reintroducing passion in their life. I fear that if you don't, it is possible that you will be pushed towards the ever climbing divorce rate (multiple divorces (males) tripled since 70's, statistics Canada) (crude divorce rate 2003 = 223.7 for every 100,000 people in population, peaking after 3 years of marriage at 26.2 out of 1,000 marriages), or infidelity in order to get that feeling back again in your life. That leads to people getting hurt and can be avoided.
Never the less, we all crave it at some point in our lives and will be hurt by it as well. I guess the point i'm trying to make after all is to just think about the begining of the relationship and how it was...and embed it into the relationship instead of it being a distant memory of how things were or use to be.
Cheers, :)
2月8日
Down Time
Hmm, think i'll start taking up walking again. Ya know..go out, think about life and the path that has taken me here. Ponder about the future, what makes me happy, sad...and all that jazz. Refocus on my life and decide which direction i should take. One more semester left in school...but then what? type of questions. At least this way i'm focussing on something that has to do with me instead of made up characters on a screen.....or other people's lives i wish i had. I guess if i'm going to be bored, it should be with myself afterall. But the one comment i did get for the last blog i believe to be very true. No matter which way i look at it, i will end back up here eventually. But ya know what? That's ok. We all need some down time to gather ourselves, regardless if positive, negative, or irrelevant, even if it's just crossing days off the calender. I think that 90% of our lives are "filler". 10% we actually live.
cheers :)
BLAH
What is the point on having tme off? To sit here and think about how pointless
your life is? Perhaps play games all day on the internet or watch movie after movie.
Well what else am i going to think about, not like i have money, or a real life. Grrr, i'm so bored and have nothing to do. On the other hand, i'm so lazy i don't want to do anything. Guess you could say i'm stuck in blah. Having this much time to think can't be good for ya...depressing!
2月4日
YAY! Almost finished
This clinical school placement is finally finished!!!! It's about time, seemed like forever in hell. One more semester left till i'm totally done this thing. Ahhh one week off is gonna be soooo good, then back to the same old stress. But for now, i'm gonna take it easy!
Cheers,
1月8日
A Sudbury New Years
Happy New Years everyone! I hope that everybody had lots of fun and partied lots.
I went to Sudury to have a party at the cottage. I'm from Hamilton, and let me tell you...the weather is much more warm in Hamilton by far. I couldn't believe the temperature difference when i got there. I just knew that for most of the weekend I would be inside rather than outside. Luckily i prepaired for the cold weather. I packed up two coats (i wore both), two set of gloves, two toques, my snowboarding pants, and stole one of my sister's pairs of boots since i don't own any.
We arrived to this cottage deep in the woods. I knew that this weekend was going to be a challenge. You see, there was not going to be any running water at all because of the frozen lake and pipes. There was a good possibility that we were not going to be able to use the toilet either, but instead use the outhouse 
. That was NOT going to happen if i could help it!!!!! Oh yeah, don't forget the freezing cold!!!! How pleasent would it be to be in an outhouse in minus 18 celsius. Anyways, heating the cottage took a while as well. Luckily we had enough space heaters to heat the overcrowded room and bathroom. We used the oven initially to produce a little bit of heat because the nozzle was frozen on the propane heater and needed to be thawed out. The bathroom was not drained properly and needed to be thawed as well. The toilet was a frozen block of ice. To fix that problem, a heater was dedicated to the bathroom (which made the seat always warm when you sat on it 
. But of course the toilet was not thawing out fast enough for us girls...so one of my buddies (name will not be metioned) decided to reach into the toilet and grab the ice block that was left in the toilet (ewwwww)! Finally everything was begining to warm up.
. That was NOT going to happen if i could help it!!!!! Oh yeah, don't forget the freezing cold!!!! How pleasent would it be to be in an outhouse in minus 18 celsius. Anyways, heating the cottage took a while as well. Luckily we had enough space heaters to heat the overcrowded room and bathroom. We used the oven initially to produce a little bit of heat because the nozzle was frozen on the propane heater and needed to be thawed out. The bathroom was not drained properly and needed to be thawed as well. The toilet was a frozen block of ice. To fix that problem, a heater was dedicated to the bathroom (which made the seat always warm when you sat on it . But of course the toilet was not thawing out fast enough for us girls...so one of my buddies (name will not be metioned) decided to reach into the toilet and grab the ice block that was left in the toilet (ewwwww)! Finally everything was begining to warm up.When we first arrived at the cottage, i looked up at the stars. I was absolutely amazing. They were even more clear in the winter than in the summer. I could make out just about all of the stars in orion that i have never before seen with my own eyes aside from viewing it on paper. As i was discovering Orion, i observed two separate falling pieces debris enter the atmosphere. I just remember feeling like i belonged there at that moment in time. That this was worth every single moment of cold and living in cramped spaces.
New years eve was the day that it was extremely cold. This did not stop us from going out to face the weather in serch of fun. When we were leaving the cottage, we came face to face with the cutest fox. It seemed to not run away from us as we expected it to do. We got the fox on tape before it did take off. It wasn't the last we seen of him though. He hung around all weekend long.
Two of the guys had brought there snowboards with them. I was angry and upset that i didn't bring mine!!!! The rest of us searched the cottage to find something that resembled a sled and came up with a "For sale by owner" sign that was made out of some kind of plastic. We jumped into a couple of cars and headed up the road to the cliffs and hills. Most of this day was captured on video tape for us to all enjoy(laugh at).
Anyways...we arrive at the hills. The two guys with snowboards decide that it would be a good idea to climb this rocky cilff and snowboard down it. It was interesting to see them try to climb up the hill, let alone go down it. By the time they reached the top, they were completely out of breath. They attempted the hill one after another. With each step you could hear there boards being scratched and destroyed against the sharp rocks below there feet. In the end of the run, brand new boards needed to be filled and sharpened (i'll just say that). But at least we got it on film.
The rest of the day consisted of us on the hills taking turns wiping out on the make shift sled, or wiping out on the snowboard. Over all, it was a fun day.
That night we had some good times. We watched the juniors advance to the semi's, played poker and drank. We had the countdown playing in the back ground. We rang in the new year freezing our asses off in Sudbury, running outside with pots and pans, breaking out champagne, watching fire works being lit off of the deck of the neighbors.
Like i said. We rang in the new year freezing our asses off in Sudbury....but it was worth it!
Cheers
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